suffering

I hate euu..
everytime see euu, euu must hurt me badly.
why u treat me like that?
why u can ask your GF treat me like that?
what you promise me that night?
say everything happen that day as a secret,
who also cant pour it,
but. why u broke our promise?
you make me disappointed everytime.
i do all the thing is just for euu,
what also dun care, juz go jusco find euu.
what u do it at me?
hurt me again again..
call your GF diao me.
i dunno why u can so cold blooded?
i really disappointed~
everything is being ok.
but, after it, i really mood down.
i dunno what am i again?
your friend?
enemy?
or. nothing?
i'm confuse.
everytime i also tolerance you.
but, now. you're meant,
my tolerance is limited.

i dunno how can i pour out,
who can i pour it,
i so suffer,
juz can smoke smoke.
keep smoke.
but, CS and you all rampas my cigarette,
what can i do again?
juz smile, laugh,
keep acting, im happy.

who can read my mind?
no one.
as long CS and Chengz say wan control me.
bt, what character them in my lifez?
they're not my man.
what i need?
or, i what also dun need?
why do you all like to control my lifez?
who are you all in my lifez?

suffering in 44 days